21/7

pioneer's day! went to church for a pioneer's day mutual. we learnt how to sew smth, how to square dance, and to roll a wheel barrel.. haha, i was lazy and was wearing heels.. so i did not went for the dance and barrel thing.. siao ar! barrel was crazy, it was fully filled with bricks one leh..nevertheless, i think it was a success!

and die la die la.. :0 , wad's happening to me!! i've been thinking abt him!!! ya, HIM!!! oh my goodness!! but i think of wad has happened in the past la.. dat's why.. i like the old him.. not anymore now.. but whenever i think of the past, i think i've fallen for him.. ^.^" haha.. dat's me! i think currently, maybe one guy could save me bahx.. but im not the first in his heart.. NVM!

22/7

shld i watch six sense alone later on? my dad said he dont wanna watch with me cuz he watched it liao.. i but haven watch!! i rmb it was a hot movie when i was still in upper pri.. abt a boy who could see spirits..oh my goodness! how i wish my sis is here with me.. oh ya, she went to bangkok for 5 days.. shld i watch it? there was constantine at 12pm, i din watch.. den tonight got hse of wax.. shld i watch? den the rest channels like nth to watch de..

IM BORED! :0 i need a job. any help? haha.

i went to sch ytd to hand in my withdrawal form. and i saw guiyu and ismath! and u know wad guiyu said? she said, "u know ar, last time Josephine comes to sch always ( "_) <-- like dat one. but now she comes to sch smiling away." haha, it's quite true la. i was quite happy ytd at sch too. i din go for lessons la.. i went to the general office and library to get 5 different ppl's signature on my withdrawal form.. and everyone wished me all the best or good luck! the SSS teacher wished me all the best and asked me to study hard in poly :) . my form teacher and maths teacher too! the security guards too!! i was truely grateful for all their blessings..
(u know, i really need all of ur supports in my decision to go poly, to cheer myself up abit. hope u guys could understand how i felt.)

went to watch pirates of the carribean, the dead man's chest, with sis too! sadly, it's below my expectation. i would prefer pirates of the carribean, the curse of the black pearl. the first one was more simple, relaxing and funny. and interesting too! the storyline was smth new and acceptable. dead man's chest was like there's this huge sea monster eating up ships.. i dunno how to say la.. and the ending was like telling us dat there's a 3rd episode of it.. sigh.. was kinda disappointed with the ending.. haha, i've been like complaining non-stop sia..

and today, u know wad daddy asked me? he asked me whether there's anyone in church likes me anot.. oh my goodness, i was shocked! i told him, i dunno, but i think dont have la.. den he asked me in sch leh? there was/is..i dunno also.. hahahahaha.. very poor thing hor... sigh...nvm la..it'll come when the time has arrived(time has ripen-in chinese..eng?) bahx..

Crazy entry

1st of July-17th of July (^_________________,^)

Seriously, I guess I've forgotten most of my thoughts throughout these 17 days...
U know, ever since my sis was back, she has been busy applying for jobs, chatting with her friends who are in HK or America, checking emails. I seldom get the chance to sit down and spend some time to type out my daily thoughts and events that happened around me.

1st of July-
yupp! Homecoming of my sis! I missed the chance of picking her up at the airport leh.. cuz I went for my bdae celebration instead. We went to Jingwei's hse for a simple yet hectic steamboat. Haha. It's was a last minute decision though. Im truly grateful to those who made it dat day. And those who helped out in the preparation and washing up, u guys did a great job! Practically, everyone helped out la. And I admit I did the least. (~.~") .. and I saw quite a lot of potential mothers.. ya ya, and we all became jingwei's wife for a few hours in his hse. We helped him to ans and open the door, to pass stuffs to her sis, to pass stuffs to him.
Later at night, I met up with my family at the science center for a buffet dinner. Oh my goodness, it's 27 dollars and u know wad.. I only ate 3 sticks of satay, a portion of vegetable, quite a lot of desserts, and a huge bowl of icecream. Abit wasted right.. sigh.. bo bian la, dat's the moment when I just gotta meet up with my sis, had lotsa stuffs to catch up ma.. (this reminds me of smth- sometime after prom night last yr, I tot there's like really no hope btw me and onson. So I stopped msging him and stuffs lo. Den ard 37 days later, he msg me and said dat we've not talked for so long liao, there's A LOT TO CATCH UP. Whoa, really ar... den now leh??? 5 mths already. Even more bahx. Sigh.. I think he's the one guy that everybody would be dreaming for bahx. Yupp, could only dream. It's like it's always out of ur reach. And there's nth dat u can do to attract him to u. one night, I sat on my bedside, looking out of the window, thinking.. an affliction towards a guy shld be sweet and each moment of happiness would envelope our hearts. If throughout this journey, I feel bitterness most of the time, I dont think it's worth it or maybe dat's not called love.. probably infatuation bahx. love shldn't be like this. So I advise to just stop pursuing this ultimately useless pursue. Stop thinking abt it. Stop giving false hopes to yourself. Stop thinking all those possibilities dat he might be in love with u too. So wad!, if he looks at u when he sits down or leaving his sit for 2nd serving of food. So wad!, if he looks at u throughout ur rehearsal of ur skit. So wad!, if he looks at u when he's sitting down. So wad!, if he danced with u.. so wad!, if he still rmbs ur bdae and sent u a msg on dat day. nth!, it's absolutely nth! stop wasting ur tears and time la. Perhaps he has someone in his heart bahx. all this while u've been thinking of him and he's thinking of someone else.. oh my goodness, so sad right... so, be smart!)

2nd of July-
big day!! It's my big day~ it's my big day!! Hahahahahahahahahaha

From Xueling- 17 years ago, an angel arrived from the heavens, sent by god, to bring joy n laughther, warmth n blessings to those around her. N today, we celebrate e arrival of this angel.. happy happy 17th birthday mei! May all ur big small wishes all come true n hav a fabulous birthday alright! =D

Whoa, first time received such a serious yet warm msg from xl.. normally is her acting cute and will sa jiao abit in the msg one.. haha..

From cecilia-(in chinese)祝你生日快乐…你又老了一岁了哦!考试要加油哦!尽早找男朋友哦!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Cecilia supports me a lot in studies one hor? haha..

From Jing Wei- Happy birthday, babe. Hopefully I am the first. I have forgotten to send on 12am. Shit.

Nvm, fengling's bdae is coming!! U still have the chance to strive in becoming the first!

From Mark- Hey happy birthday.. may all ur wishes come through

My wishes like forever cannot make it one leh.. and hor, u're STILL making this mistake!! It's not come through, it's come true..

From onson- Hey, happy bdae!

Wa, 1st and only msg I received from him ever since 15th of march. Haha.

From han lee-(in chinese) 祝你生日快乐, 祝你生日快乐, 祝你生日快乐, 祝你生日快乐! (: HAPPY 17TH BDAY! :D muahhs*

Muacks :)

From nelson- Josephine! Haaappy birthday to You! This year wil b a great year for u and do well in ur studies and most of all, find ur 白马王子! Study hard, study smart worx!

Sigh, sorry if I've disappointed u.. screwed up everything in my studies.. but I hope everything will be fine in the future.

From kai sen- Happy Birthday!!

From wei Quan- Ya hor... Haven't send u b'day sms... Hahaha... How was ur b'day? Lol...

Indeed lol leh.. haha.. where got ppl b'day sms like dat one.. haha..

From keny- Happy 17th birthday phine! I nv wrong ba? Hehexx. Wish u have a great birthday full of joys. N all ur wish come true. Muackz!

Amazing ar.. I always thought he was a forgetful guy.. haha.. he actually rmbs..

From Ismath-Wishing u a very HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! I'm so sorry that I 4got ur birthday. At least I now remembered. Haha..anyway all e best in wateva u do. May God Bless U

Wa..so holy.. May God bless u too!

That's it! There're ppl who wished me a happy birthday too, but through other forms of means la.. msn and face to face lo.. Thomas called at night too! Philip called on 3rd of july bahx..sigh..

I felt dat this yr's bdae was really different.. I din get to see my friends on my bdae..i receieved a lot of call, msg full of wishes.. nth like wad we did in the past few yrs.. smth special..

3 of July-Youth day. (Wad did I do on dat day? I forgot!!!! Oh dear.)
But I think I've talked to my sis abt my situation in sch dat night. I managed to hold back my tears. But I might appear to talk in a strange manner. Haha.. (I cant really rmb wad she said dat night) she asked me wad did Philip said when he heard of my situation. I told her he said he's fine with me enrolling into poly as he has friends who went to poly and is in NTU now, and they appear to perform better than him. Blahx blahx blahx. But she remained silence and we fell asleep.

4 of July- sis went to seminary with me and hugged me when we departed. She told me not to be unhappy anymore in sch today kie? SoB! Even still, I couldnt stand it when im at sch.

5 of July- sis actually went into the net and searched for articles regarding people treated other people with unkind deeds, and also on articles whereby the person doesn't feel dat he/she belonged. Whoa, inspiring articles man! Increased my faith in IJC a little bit more dat night.

6 of July- school. All day long, I was thinking and thinking.. at a moment I was telling myself, "aiya, stay la stay la. 1 1/2 years ONLY. Can la. ENDURE!" but the other moment, when my friend threw a book at me, reminds me of the past man. That action of hers already hurts me liao. Wad to do, maybe she's like dat. But u know, last time hor..........she..........sigh..........wdv. and I felt like quitting. Dat was during phy tut. And when my teacher, he goes through the exam paper. I totally had no interest. I guessed I've lost interest bahx. phy leh, my all time fav. Chem. And maths also. But now, it seems like I've no interest. But I do like geog a lot. It's interesting! But still, not much diff la.. wad happened to my passion for studies? I rmb I suggested to have group studies last time. Jielin once told me dat im the one person which she knew at dat time who like to study so much. Wad happened? Where's my power? Maybe maths and science isn't my type. Or maybe it's too in-depth for me bahx.

7 of July-Tennis!! It'll be the one of the highlight of the day!
My first training sia. Cool leh.. I've learned a lot from the coach in the first session. At least now I could hit the ball back. Even though it's out most of the time. BUT! I still managed to hit it back right.. previous attempt last yr was I cant even hit it back or it got stuck at the hole in the middle of the racket. Tennis is fun. And the coach is super friendly lo.. very enthu also. We're dismissed at 5pm. And it was 5:30pm already, I hafta rush back home for a church activity a night ma.. then u know wad, the coach told me how I could also practice my forehand and backhand skills when im on my own..by just hitting it against a wall.. den he asked the captain to open the half court for me leh.. but in the end din la..i gotta rush for an activity ma.tennis was fun fun fun!!!!
at night, went to xingying's hse to invite her out for dinner! initially, she was very reluctant to go but she still agreed to join us towards the end of our persuasion. the sad thing was....we went to eat mac for dinner! i had long john for lunch u know.. and poor samantha, she ate mac in the early evenings i guess..anyway, she and i chatted throughout our whole journey back home. it was a great chat! it helped me to find out wad i truely want. i had a firm stand after dat night. she made me realized dat i really wanna leave dat sch. no more being undecisive. she made me realized dat i shldnt carry on studying becuz my whole family wants me to. i shld enjoy my educational life. shld be happy with wad im doing. if it's her mom, she would let her withdraw as soon as possible, dont waste time and money when ur heart has already given up in it. (and pits and pieces which i've forgotten la..haha, u know how my memory works.) she has this similar experience when she was in sec 1. we both cried each night for more than 3 mths to leave dat place. we both needed motivation to go to school.sigh.every sunday, when i saw her in church, she would ask me, "so how? talked to ur father already?"..she's one friend who was soOOoo concerned with my situation. im really grateful for her man.. haha.

9th of July-church. daddy's talk lo..he's so funny sia. was so touched when he said, "I love my family alot". *SoB* and World Cup finals 2006!!!

1oth of July-World Cup finals 2006 France VS Italy :)

i supported france all the way wor.. and daddy and sis supported italy. and i was super sleepy during extra time leh.. but when penalty kicks comes, EXCITING!

But then Zidane!! Dunno wad happened to him la. he cant seemed to control himself at dat instant after he has been provoked by some other player from Italy. Sigh. Sian diao lo.. received a red card immediately. No hope liao la.. when france lost, my dad and sis said dat zidane will be in big trouble..haha..i dont see any trouble. But it's becuz he wasnt there for the penalty kick ma.. slow leh me.. tsk tsk tsk. Sigh, nearly cried when france lost. Although my dad supported italy, still he commented dat france played beautifully. France played better than Italy. He actually felt quite dat it's a pity u know.. hahahahaha.. good judgement.. :)

At night I told my sis dat I really dont wanna go to sch and stuffs la.. I've no motivation to go to school. I cried like maddd lo.. I think she felt my pain bahx. last mon, her attitude towards this matter was still quite strict and little comments one leh.. but now, she's like so nice and all. She comforted me of cuz, told me her pri sch and JC experiences. (She's a strong women. My role model. ) and she changed her perspective and she supported my decision in enrolling into poly. I was even more touched. But dat night, she wanted me to give myself one more chance. She said, one more month, up till national day, and if I still dont like my life in JC, then we'll tell father tgt abt this. but I must pray everyday to ask heavenly father to help me decide wad is good for me and to make me like my stay in sch. And study everyday, go to sch everyday for this one month. And I agreed. She gave me a big hugged after dat.

11 of July- I was reluctant to go to school. No motivation. So I pon lo..hahahahaha.
went to east coast and rode a bike. Watched the world cup finals repeat at mac. The previous night, I kept telling myself for the sake for quitting school in august, just go to school la.. but I failed.

12 of July-was reluctant to go to school again. super no motivation. Went to woodlands. Sat on the marble seats in the woodlands interchange. Watched lotsa IJ students rushing to board the 900A bus.(including nelson) They're abt to be late ma..in the end, I din go to sch.

13 of July-I was late for sch. Din even wanna go to sch at first. But the amazing things was, I wasnt as sad as before.. but still sad la.. I knew the lord has blessed me to be happier there bahx. but still, I din go for pe. Hahahahaha..and SSS. I'll be so dead.if I go for triple S, it's 5-6pm. I dont mind going.. but I dont wanna stay in dat school until 5pm just for it..sickening leh. I've nth to do within dat 3hrs. stone there for 3 hours? Nahz.

14 of July-went for school. My name was announced in front of all J1 dat I pon SSS!!Oh my goodness. Don need to be so extreme bahx, uncle. chill man. Dat teacher was super angry lo. Asked me to stay from 5-7pm after school. Actually, I planned to go for SSS today..cuz I've tennis until 5pm ma..sob..coach din come today..so we played doubles among ourselves.. fun sia.. mini tennis like more fun leh..cuz don hafta run all ard the whole court..haha..after 5pm, they were still practicing! I wouldnt wanna leave if it was not for the sake of SSS!!!! Sigh.. I left at 5:15pm..sigh.
everything after dat was like so dramatic man. Dat SSS teacher cum phy teacher cum former Zhenghua Sec sch teacher came and talk to me!!! At first he asked me why I was late for sch on thurs. everything I ans screwed up everything man.. I told him I was sick. He asked me whether did I came to school on wed. I said no.. den dunno how he linked to mon and tue, I said I was absent too.. I told him I was sick, I got mc and my parents were aware of it. These 3 big lies were to protect me from being receiving the consequences of truancy. Bo bian leh. But everything he asked after dat, I answered truthfully.. I was so emotional dat I cried out man!. And he said he'll inform my dad abt it!!! Sigh.. how? Wad to do? My dad will surely be devastated after knowing I've not been going to school one ma.. who cares how the teacher felt abt me poning sch, I care abt the feeling of my dad. U might say, if this's the case, why do I still pon? I really dont wanna go to sch! U know, the teacher confiscated my ez-link card on thurs. when he returned it to me, he saw my pic and sighed. He said, he felt sad to see my smiling/happy face last time and now, no longer like wad it was..i cried again. man, cry baby right.... Hahahahaha..after dat at 7pm..i left the school, I cried and cried throughout the walk back to the interchange, I guessed I walked for like abt 30mins. Usually, it'll take me 13 mins(cuz I wanna leave dat place asap ma)..when I queued in the 963 lane, I saw hafeez in the 161 lane. I tot he pon soccer training? Anyway, he asked me why am I so sad.. I wasn't crying anymore at dat time..den I told him why la.. I wasnt thinking too much dat time, I kept saying I dont wanna to go sch! And I cried out man. Come to think of it, quite paiseh leh, cuz there's a lot of ppl queuing there ma.. yupp. Was crying and crying non-stop throughout the bus ride. I din cared how those ppl looked at me. I tried to stop but I cant. They just rolled down my cheeks like no body's business. I closed my eyes, tears could still squeeze their way out. No appetite dat day. When my dad came back home dat night, I looked at him, he smiled at me. It has been ages since he last paused his way back to his room to spend a few secs looking right into my eyes and giving me his charming smile. But in my mind was all those different outcomes when he know of the truth. My sis asked me wad happened due to my sad countenance too. I really cant tell her wad happened. She asked me to go to sch everyday on mon. but I failed.. SORRY for the disappointment. But I'll stay firm to my decision.

15th of July-woke up by my dad. Felt like crap still. im Useless, a letdown to my parents. But I wouldnt excel in JC and wad's the point? Im rotting to a bad person in dat place. I begged for ur forgiveness even in my dreams, dad. The first thing he did was dat he passed me a muffin, he said I could eat this if im hungry now. If not I could wait till 11:30pm for lunch. Sob!! Save me! I wouldnt bear to see his heart broken. When his hp has a msg, and he din noticed it, I passed it to him. I looked at his face, I just wouldnt bear to hurt him. I didnt know wad to do. Stress man. Msg Cecilia, asked her to take me out for a movie. When I was abt to leave the hse, he asked me whether did I asked President lai abt the requirements for entering into BYU after my 1st year in JC. I told him dat I'll tell him my plans tonight when I get back. Oh dear.... The time has come!! When I got back home, he quickly switched off the tv, asked my wad's my plan? I was shocked! But I still hafta face this ultimately. I started saying I dont wanna study in dat sch anymore. And blahx blahx lo. He asked me why and I gave him part of the reason. He started to find me ridiculous and immature and was getting agitated. I starting to get disappointed and said a prayer in my heart to ask heavenly father to help me soften his heart and to calm down a little bit, and to be able to understand why am I doing this. after dat, I've been crying a lot but this time, without all those severe hiccuping. My tears were just kept rolling down one after another and dripped down of my chin and wetted my shirt. oh dear, I was thinking maybe my dad wouldnt allow me to quit sch. But I was wrong, he said, if dont wanna go den dont go lor! Den he asked me wad do I wanna do if im not studying in dat sch anymore? I told him I would wanna go BYU very much as the rest of the family does. But im just not prepare yet. I've no passion for studies and motivation now. I might not be able to perform well in BYU. I said I would like to go poly next yr and hopefully do well and fight back my long lost passion towards studying for maybe 1 yr before I leave for BYU. everything might perhaps be easier for me bahx. he agreed to it wor!!!!!!!!!!!! Am I dreaming!!??!?!?!???!???!???!??
But he told me not to run away from problems, shld solve it instead. Cuz there'll be lotsa problems coming up when I've established my future family. Oh my goodness, everytime im dad lectured me, he'll always link to my future family.. sigh.

After dat, I gave myself a big smile.

(^______________________________________^,)
It has been so long since I've been so happy.

Dat's night, hafeez msg me whether am I really leaving sch. I finally can tell him YES! Sometime next week. Asap. :D
And u know wad, he apologized to me. I was puzzled. And ask why. This was how he replied:

Hmmm. I dunno leh. Just wanna say sorry ba. Everytime make fun of you.. maybe got hurt you in the process. But it's not intentional ba. Sorry horh. I also feel bad lah. You know your pw group. About you and wen chong. I should have taken a stand ba. To see him pushing every blame to you, see his face black black, I should have speak up more for you. I thought things were going to get better. But when I saw you cry that night, I felt very sad lorh. I dunno leh. I just wanna say sorry because I didn't really do my part as your classmate.

You know I was extremely touched after reading dat. I cried AGAIn. sigh. U know his not in my pw group and he told me this.. he's one true friend I've known in sch bahx. but we weren't very close though. And u know he's a malay and he will use 'ba' and quite a lot of other stuffs..funny leh..
There's another msg from him too!

It says:

Ah pin, once you have made up your mind, move forward and dun look back. If this is what you really want, go for it yah. Be sure. Even tho I'd like you to stay, you'll still have my support. Ah pin jiayou.

Sob sob. He'll be one friend dat I'll miss most after I've left. U know, during our sch's flag day, he accompanied me to go to RJ..tgt with another guy also la.. and none of us has been there before, and we stood outside RI thinking it was RJ and he shouted onson's name aloud sia.. hahaha..but in the end we managed to get to the main entrance of RJ. Hafeez has left me some sweet memories of my life in IJ. THANKS WOR, and I wish him good luck with chang jin(his wife..hahahahaha)..and I told him my boyfriend is Jay Chou somemore.. ya ya, we wish..hahaha..

16th of July- church lo.. I gave a talk..simple yet everyone said it's a good talk.. the truth is I don't think it's a very good talk la.. I din really prepared it.. cuz I've been bothered with stuffs for a very long time..but it's ALL OVER now!!

17th of July- I went to np make some clarifications.. and u know wad.. I looked into the net for a brief overview of each courses available in np except most of the engineering and science courses. I think I have most interest in Business studies and early childhood for the time being.. but dat super enthu lady in the admin office told me dat business studies was very hot during 2006's intake sia..and the cut off point went to as low as 13 pts!! My dear.. my score is 14 sia.. but I told her I got 15.. den early childhood was 15..she said it's too risky..i shld go for those 17-20 pts..sian diao.. how would I know sia..the net din say anything abt it.. and she added dat they'll give higher chances to those who're taking o levels this yr.. SOB!!! Sigh.. nvm la.. I've not yet comfirm with wad I truly want.. there's still some time until their open hse.. don't be discouraged kie! Went to sister soh's hse to help my sis in giving tuition to Aubrey..haha..quite an refreshing experience..u know, I don't find it difficult when Im explaining to my friends last time.. but I find it hard to explain to her..she's in pri 5.. but after dat, my sis said I have the potential wor.. really? Hahahahaha.. I love teaching maths!!

18 of July- went to sch to get my withdrawal form.. my teacher supported my decision wor.. im hapy happy happy.. thank you.. I really need dat.. nevertheless, IM OUT OF THE PLACE! and I've been blogging all these entries..cracking my head so recall wad has happened..haha.. so happy since sat. but due to some things, im still quite sad though.. hmmm.. I'll talk abt it tmr bahx..

Church stuffs

The positive qualities that Thomas once told me of was that i can be able to make ppl laugh.
i can still rmb vivdly that he took me out for a date to chijmes for a dinner and after that we took a trishaw to the sg river..haha. then he told me what he had observe of me during his stay in sg. i was shocked man! lucky i was still quite guai lo. haha.

he said that i made my friends around me happy and laughing all the way. and that im smiling all the time. always so cheerful. could get over something within a blink of an eye! could even brighten someone elses day wor. dat was 10th of Aug 05. so if u have any objections to it, chill man. it's last yr's stuffs

he said that dat was my talent. i guess i've lost my talent.

how can i continue to develop these gifts and use them to serve my family and others:

• identify who's gloomy and offer an listening ear or talk to that person
• make her feel happy
• care for her
• help her if she needs help
• include her in everything
• be happy
• be a shining star
• be a person dat would inspire those who's in need of inspirations

this is painful man..i find it hard to stay happy sia..how to..........

The importance of learning and of preparation.

List of hopes and dreams for my future home, family, and education and some impt things I would like to accomplish in life:
- Married in the Lord's temple
- I hope to have 6 beautiful kids
-Loving husband (someone like Jake in Just my Luck, haha)
-I would like to stay in a penthouse :)
-I would like my future home to be bright and windy
- Nice view (sea view? Haha)
- I wish my family would be happy always
-Blissfulness and happiness in the air
- No worries (harkuna murtata (spelling not right) - Lion King)
- Active in the church
- Keep the commandments
- Loving parents and to have obedient children :)
- Have lotsa quality time with each other
- Safety and good health shines upon us
- Stable income
- Could go on vacation at times! (Despite a family of 8!)
- Could afford to have a small corner for pets! (6 cute bunnies)
- Nice decorations, comfortable environment, conducive
- Peaceful
- Please bless me with normal kids (even if it's not, please bless me that I’ll love them as well)
- Bless my children that they would receive proper education
- Pro in Tennis, volleyball, etc
- Treasure each other
- They'll grow up to be righteous adults
- They'll Enter into BYU
- They'll Serve a mission
- They could all get married happily ever after in the temple
- Could become good parents too!
- Hope we could all be sealed together in the temple
- No hard feelings/no conflicts/no arguments/no unhappy moments
(And the list goes on....)


A plan to achievement! :
- Develop princess-like qualities (so that I could catch a Prince!)
- Quit my job and become a full-time housewife
- Be able to give and take
- Set good examples
- Be understanding
- Learn how to cook, sew, manage household chores, etc
- Be fun, loving, caring, whatever personalities that requires of a mom
- Be able to solve their problems if they need my help
- Be more gentle and loving
- Be aware of their situations/feelings
- Nurture them to what is expected of them
- Exercise good qualities
- Learn how to be a good mother and supportive wife
- Could be able to bring happiness to everyone
- Be more enthu!
- Develop good judgment skills (to know what's best for the family)
- Stay away from evil
- Be able to make plans and stick with it (financial plans, etc)
- Be a peacemaker
- Teach them to be independent
- Do not neglect them
- Teach them to choose the right
- Be obedient to my husband (but of course not literally)
- Make preparations and not do things last minute
- Could be able to balance my lifestyle (be it with family or friends)
- Be active in church!
- Show appreciation in family efforts
- Offer help if they're in need of any
- Be a supermom :)
- Teach them tennis :)
- Develop Christ-like qualities both in them and in me
- Know them well
- Be aware of the things that my husband don’t like me to do
- Carry out family outings!
- Make home a happy place to be!!
(And the list goes on....)

like abit impossible ar...haha. nvm la.. no harm making a list of wad i wished for. just try to do whatever that is within my reach. aja aja fighting!